Hello guys, yeah.. I should be at school now but due to my sickness, I'm in 'holiday' for 3 days + 2 other days for not being able to join Outbound thingy. I was quite glad not joining because.. yeah, I'm not that dare to try the wild adventures out there. But now it changes. I wanna go outbound so badly D'X So I can let it out from my heart, EVERYTHING!!
What's the real meaning of 'pathetic' today is.. My 1st lovely bias, whose name I always used in every account, whose photo I set as my wallpaper in my phone, whose picture I used as my twitter background, whose picture I put in my wallet, who goes first when I think of everything.. Has broken my heart into pieces. Really. Okay, he's not even knows I'm exist.
But seriously. I should have realized since Hello Baby days, he's mentioned her name. Hers. Shin Se-Kyung. I should have realized I should have never fallen for this guy. Gosh. He's really made my head aching again. Great. But this is how I can do. Spreading out everything on my mind so I can be more calm. Okay, every Shawols especially Blingers do now. Pity us. No, we have to be happy for him right? Yes we should, even though it's hard. It has to be like that.
When I logged in to my twitter, what I saw first is "Shin Se-Kyung and SHINee's Jonghyun confirmed to be dating" Woah.. Can you imagine he's your bias? Fandom thingy, it would happen to everyone. Sarcasm. Ironic. Damn.. What did I say.. But this is what's going in my mind. Before it spills everywhere. But I'm not one of a kind 'crazy or mad fan' that would bash on her or telling everyone she would kill herself if they're still going out. Man, he's not yours! Not even ours! He belongs to himself. I've never realized what I've said before what's happened today. Never ever consider your bias as your boyfriend! Even though you're really a big big HUGE fan, never ever do so. It'll only hurt your heart so badly. When you know he's taken. I'm laughing sarcasticly now, I don't care grammar too. I really spit out everything, aren't I?
One last pharagraph.. My advice, when you're a fan of some idols, or if you're a TRULY FAN, you should have never considered him/her as your girl/boyfriend. Second, when he/she's rumoured to be dating another idols or person, don't bash her/his girl/boyfriend, remember you're even not EXIST by him. Because you're truly a fan, what we can do is support them wherever they are, be as supportive as you can, if I'm narrow-minded, I maybe would kill myself. But I'm not. We have our own life, don't we? So, be happy with our own life. They're also humans. I pity them who likes bashing the others. Such a shame.
Okay that one should be last pharagraph but I'm not satisfied already. LOL. Okay, back to old me. The cheerful ones *do I consider myself as cheerful? ironic* My way to shed sadness is.... EAT AS MUCH AS YOU WANT! So, don't be afraid when you're getting fat, get a diet, then you'd have forgotten everything. LMAO. Toodles. Have a nice weekdays.
